It's been a rough week here. I'm trying to make the most of my time here, while being really homesick and not feeling that comfortable in the family. I don't think I will stay here till april, the situation just didn't turn out to be right for me. I don't feel any regrets about coming here, but I know that if I were to stay I would be really unhappy.
so things are not that easy right not, we're trying to balance my wanting to leave, and the family wanting me to stay.
Yesterday I finally went to that Jeff Koons exhibit I had written about the other day. It was really neat, he's a funny guy. there was also a really big Paul Klee exhibit in the same museum, it was neat, but just too much for me. I like looking at maybe twenty drawings but when there is hundreds of them, and they are all supposed to be meaningful and extraordinary it just gets phony in my opinion. i have a hard time being impressed by stickfigure sketches on old napkins. There were so many people and they would spend such a long time on every piece of "art", i just kept thinking how everybody was just trying to impress everyone else by seeming so interested in the art. that's a weird sentence, but it makes sense in my head.
today i might go for a run, right now i'm doing a pro and con list in my head, trying to convince myself why it would be a good thing to do. it just seems that there is more cons (including that it's cold outside and a new episode of californication is up).
I'll leave you with a picture of one of the Koons sculptures.

they are big and shiny, and i like that.